i think it’s about time that you save this.
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| — | JRA |
Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over. :)
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| — | from somewhere |
1:53 AM
They say everything is simple. You can choose to be happy, or you can choose to be miserable, that simple. You want it, or you don’t want it. Yes or No. Stop or Go.
So I choose to be happy. To enjoy whatever it is I have right now. Although a lot and I mean A LOT of questions are going through my mind, I try my best not to dwell on it. Why? I guess since I haven’t mustered enough courage to ask those questions to that person and I guess I’m just afraid to know the answer. But that’s what TRUST is all about, right? Trust is about having unanswered questions and believing the best in that person and not doubting them.
All I know is that ever since this thingamajig started, I’ve been happier. Things have been brighter, that nothing could ruin my day, plus I’m back to writing. I am THAT happy that I actually started writing again. YEY! ( gah! I missed writing :> ) It’s like my head is stuck in the cloud and I’m on the up and up.
I never thought that I could be this happy again, possibly, even happier than I ever was before. That all I could do now is try to be a better version of me for that person. Because I know that person deserves the best. I just hope he knows that too.
And just so he knows, whatever happens, I’ll always be right here, and I’m not giving up. <3
Crossed fingers, Palms held together, praying that this would work out. :))
You know how we feel when we’re in love? Inside, we lose control. We get nervous at the very thought of you. We don’t plan our day around Madden or our boys anymore, we plan it around how far it’s going to take to get to your favorite eatery to the movie theater. We wake up seeing if you texted us yet and if you didn’t we’re racing to say good morning to you. Our stomachs are unsettled, but in a good way. We want to impress you. We want you to be proud of us. We want you to send us indirect Twitter messages, hit us on BBM and say “Check your timeline” to see if we can pick out the message you wrote to us. We worry if we’re good enough. Are you satisfied. What do you need? We want to constantly make you happy. We feel the urge to make you lose the “Want” factor in your brain because we’ve given you everything there will ever be to give you. We’re not just thinking relationship, we’re thinking legacy. That’s what it’s like when boys are in love. Well, I know that’s how I am.
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 times a million!!!!!!!!!!
